Label Resistance

I am one of the many considered strange
But when I look around
I see the normal people are the ones who are deranged
This is a confession
I used to have a crazy niche
Nonsense
Special people
How profound
They don’t even exist
Welcome to a new day of persistence
Gather round my friends
This is just the beginning of label resistance
I will never get on my knees
I will never bow down
To a man who is a thief
Nor to whom that wears a crown


Stay strong my friends. If you are labeled, consider the source. To be different than others is to be human. Try to embrace your niche. Love yourself and don’t feel guilty for taking care of yourself first.

I got caught up in the torture of labeling by others. Now I can see that although I struggle I am far from being weak. God made only one of me. He made you too. A spark of the devine. If we would reject the negatives and focus on the positive things about ourselves, disregarding the voices that tell us we aren’t enough, we just might flourish.

Me… I am giving it a try. I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. I can stave off the horrific thoughts about myself by rejecting them as false. If God loves me, why can’t I? I can! I am 42 on the 17th of August and I had to have a near death experience to realize that the only person who has been torturing myself is me. I allowed myself to wallow in my own sorrow. No more!

I know I have mental illness but I am not to blame. No more than a person with a heart condition or diabetes. I have a physician. I am well. I can do better still. Maybe some day I can even get back to work again. πŸ˜ƒ I miss work so much!

I guess the message is that there is hope for all of us. No matter how bad things get, they can get better. We should lean on the ones who understand our faults and our abilities. We need to speak to people who understand what we are going through and help to lift them up as well.

I will leave it there for now. Thank you so much for stopping by my blog.

I hope you all have a beautiful day.

πŸ’™,

The Mad Chatter

Freaked Out!!!

Well, hello to my first moment of internet fright. A YouTube account called American Snuff Films has made me feel more than uneasy. First of all… the name of the account! Ummm… and then the photo on the account has an industrial type camera with a cartoon of a woman or child being killed. How is this account allowed to exist? Whoa, I am really freaking out. Why? His comments to me were a little reminiscent of The Silence of the Lambs… like Hello Clarice… I want to kill you. I commented on a site that I really enjoy… then this American Snuff Films dude says, hi with a smiley face. I was like, dude, your name is as scary as the video we are discussing. Then he was like… and you are so pretty. Horrifying!

So add together the name, American Snuff Films and you are so pretty and you get me freaked out!!! Like, is that a threat? And the name… creepy AF! I blocked him, but still… he is lingering around the internet and there are probably a couple million just like him. How brazen can one be to name their YouTube account, American Snuff Films. Then someone calls you on your creepiness and you are just like, Hello pretty lady… I will find you, kill you and eat you. Yikes. My stomach dropped and I felt sick. Who are these freaks of nature. I hope I don’t find out. Crazy.

I just had to share the sheer horror of reading that with all of you. Oofta. Still freaked out. What a weirdo… like, is this Hunter S Thompson? I thought you were dead dude. The things that people do to scare others is just so… human. I don’t expect any better from these people. I lower my expectations so that I am not disappointed when things go wrong. Is that a good or bad trait? Oy.

Thank you for reading my evident self rant. I appreciate your support. Would this creep you out ladies? Gentlemen? I mean, what in the world… I feel like he is the hacker that cut that video off. It was live and all of a sudden it went dark for YouTube violations. We were looking at an alleged leak of a human cloning laboratory on a very prominent channel. I commented how creepy it was that the video cut off the live feed and then I hear from Hannibal Lechter himself! Hello crazy… please don’t come for me. Be careful out there my friends… people are insane.

Love to all,

The Mad Chatter

A Warriors Pain

Awaken to plastic pillows and restraints
Men battling demons of the mind
Hearing intrusive voices in their brains
Post traumatic stress disorder
A label placed upon warriors strained
Traumatic events molding men
Intensifying blackout type of pain


I spent a few days in the mental hospital about 7 years ago. I sat with a man who had a most interesting and saddening experience during his time serving our Country in war. He was a young soldier, who had a family history of schizophrenia.

Unfortunately, as most soldiers do, this young man watched his dear friend and brother die in front of him. He had a mental breakdown and was sent home indefinitely. He was telling me how he ended up in the facility. I was all ears.

He said, one day I was sitting on my back porch smoking a cigarette with my best friend. About five minutes of good conversation went by, when suddenly I remembered that my friend who was with me was dead. I started freaking out when he disappeared in front of my eyes. I tried to kill myself after that and I ended up in here.😫😭

My heart bleeds for these warriors! I then, watched him attempt to take his life in the facility. He was punished for this action by not being allowed out of his room. No more day room, or meals in the kitchen. No more conversing with the other patients. I was not impressed with how he was treated after coming home from the war. I will never forget him. He was one of the many members of the Military who are not respected when they finally come home from hell on Earth.

We have to do better than that for our Veterans who give their lives for our freedom. Freedoms we take for granted every day. Did you know that in Uganda being gay is cause for death? Grotesque!

American people should remember how privileged we ALL are, just because we live in a country that accepts a whole lot of things others do not. I’m so tired of this privilege nonsense. If you live in America, consider yourself fortunate.

We really owe all we are to the people who keep us free… the red, white and blue. To all Military personnel currently serving to keep us free and safe, thank you so much. To the Veterans who are with us, thank you for your services. God bless you all and keep you safe! I have mad respect for you all!πŸ™β€

Respect goes a long way. Thank a Veteran today. Maybe it only takes one thank you to make someone feel better in a moment of despair. Why not be that person, who never knows they saved someone from harm by being thankful and compassionate? It’s not a difficult task to be grateful and kind.

That’s my Ted talk for the day.

Thank you for stopping by my blog.

Have a beautiful day everyone.

❀,

The Mad Chatter

Man Made Division

Pain of the body
Pain of the mind
Smash the two together
Welcome to humankind

Maybe if we came together as sisters and brothers
Rather than choosing a part
Mankind could begin to live in peace
An attempt would be a start

The elites want the people to be divided
Why don’t we rise up and say no
If we decided to come together
Who knows how far we all could go

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I miss the days when people were allowed to express themselves freely without fearing a gunshot to the head! I miss the freedoms that are being taken away by rich, elite jackalopes who love to watch the 99 percent kill each other.

We are pawns of their games. Why not abate the hate? Why not leave the shenanigans behind and talk about taboo issues? All so we can get to the root of the problems we are facing as human beings…

Because we are human, are we incapable of the task of communicating with people who disagree with our own points of view? Are we that tender and if we are so soft inside, why? We weren’t born sissified.🀨

Time to start the process of figuring these things out now. Forget the one percent. Let’s work on the 99. They don’t really care about us is right Michael Jackson!πŸ€·πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ

I’m not optimistic about this because I know we have been brain washed into thinking it’s our way or the highway. We need to find the middle ground again somehow. I pray it’s not too late. πŸ™

Just something that has been on my mind since birth…πŸ€¦πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ

Have a great day everyone.

Love to all,

The Mad Chatter

CORONA: Symptoms and some laughter πŸ˜†

Chest pain
Oxygen low
Respiration tweak
Oh Lord, my head hurts
N my pulse is getting weak
Add a fever of over 100.4
Put your shoes on and hit the floor
Go straight to the Emergency Room
Hurry up now, zoom zoom
These are all signs of a terrible infection
Time for a few hundred prayers and a life reflection

These are the signs of pneumonia and also the Covid 19 Virus. Thank goodness I only had pneumonia but 4 doctors told me that I had Coronavirus lungs, for 3 days… and they said were just blown away that they were wrong. I told them I refused their diagnosis in the ER… I pointed at the Doctor and said, I do not have THE RONA! Then he let out a guttural laugh. It was all I could do to lighten the mood for everyone. That hospital needs comic relief and even as I was facing death alone, I was joking. πŸ™€πŸ€£ Glad I was right this time y’all! Whew… πŸ˜¬πŸ˜‡that was a very close call.

I’m here to let the conspiracy theorists who don’t believe that the virus is real know… the virus is really real! πŸ€·πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ We’ve lost 32 souls in our little city so far. Nearly 1,500 people have tested positive here, and this is not over. Not by a long shot. This is not a political game. This is a virus that doesn’t procrastinate. 🀨

Stay diligent about the safety guidelines please. A protest, a campaign rally, a trip to death island is not worth your life. Glasses are better protection than a mask according to my doctors. Both are your best option. Use both. Think of them as facial condoms… πŸ˜‰πŸ€£ and wear em like your life depends on them. Because I can assure you that the hospitals are overloaded and not having a patient advocate is freaky as all get out! When you have the symptoms, you are on your own buddies! No visitors allowed in the bay. Or the respiratory floor. Why do I tell you this? I lived through it to tell you what I now know. Ya welcome! πŸ˜‚ I kid. No really, ya welcome. 🀣

Be careful out there. Be safe. God speed, my friends.πŸ™πŸ‘£

Have a beautiful day. Thank you for stopping by my blog. I appreciate you so much.

❀,

The Mad Chatter

Darkness to Light

The light is shining on you now, illuminated ones

The darkness is not a safe space for you

And even if you run…

We all know about your pedophilic ways

Avicii was correct and died

For a Better Day

RIP AVICII


Allegedly 😏

https://youtu.be/Xq-knHXSKYY
ORIGINAL VIDEO AVICII

https://youtu.be/nSeMoGSKiAU
LYRICS: FOR A BETTER DAY

https://youtu.be/hQV-c1ZOk7g
RIP WARRIOR AVICII

#endhumantrafficking

Have a great day and thank you for stopping by my blog for a daily dose of awakening.

We have children to save. God speed! God bless!

❀,

The Mad Chatter

K-12 Homeschooling Anxiety

Hey everyone. Man, this Covid-19 has messed up the entire schooling process. In my town, they are opening schools, but my ex husband doesn’t want my kids in public school because he is worried about the incline in cases. Last year when this came up, my ex wasn’t concerned with the kids going to public school, but now all of a sudden he is worried. My daughter desperately wants to go back to school. I think it’s best for her own mental health. I was planning to home school my son anyways, but now I am going to have to home school two kids and I am a bundle of nerves. I am an able bodied disabled mom. I can do this! If only K-12 would help me!!! GRRRR.

The application process isn’t all that bad, except that the parent portal app is not working on my phone and I can’t provide the appropriate compliance information through that parent portal. Nor are they able to help me over the phone. I have been waiting several days for help getting the app to work. So everything is in place, but the portal isn’t working. K-12 is not helping me… hello to my panic attacks and anxiety.

ANXIETY… hello my old friend. Sorry you are back so soon again. I thought we’d be okay. I thought that this was at an end… but here I am panicking with one question.

Why does everything have to be so hard… can’t I get a pass one time… nope. The closing date for acceptance into the program is the 21st of August. I am so anxious. Lord, help me to remain calm and carry on… I just got outta the hospital, I am not yet strong.

If somebody doesn’t answer this phone soon I am going to lose my mind… my dignity is slipping… I don’t want to be unkind. I just want my kids to be in school cuz I am the type of mom who isn’t about to raise a fool.

Now I am rhyming to pass the time… so I don’t lose my mind. I know you parents out there understand… manning the things that can’t be planned. Like pandemics and the state of affairs… I can’t deal with this when there are important things to be concerned with floating through the air. My mom has breast cancer and is about to undergo surgery… I wish it was not her but me. You couldn’t find a better mother or a nicer human being, but cancer doesn’t procrastinate as to whom it will be receiving. Damn cancer and this phone call… I am still waiting, no patience at all. Life is not fair, this I know now… so I will have to just pray for what the Lord will allow. Please God let my mother be okay, and help me make it through another day. Make me strong, instead of weak… awaken my heart to a life not so bleak. Keep my kind, dear Lord… angry is something my mind can’t afford. Amen

Thank you for stopping by my blog today. I appreciate you very much. Best wishes to all. Have a beautiful day.

Love,

The Mad Chatter

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